Monday, 21 November 2011

I feel like telling you a story today



Ackley: a dweller in the oak tree meadow

Looking as far as he could , it was all for his taking, he could take in the beauty, venture into its glory . He could keep going as far as he could. But he stood still, because for him the existence of it was enough.

But he had a curious mind he was only a child , ten years of age. Who could blame him if he wanted to know more, about the unknown and he was all by himself. even at this age he knew he preferred it that way.

What disturbed him most were the people talking to him from within, he knew they were only voices they did not exist outside of him. But they were fun. He still couldn't understand that this was just his character developing and getting many new faces. He painted faces upon the voices and gave them some of his treasures. Each had one to themselves.

The boy had been so luck so far because he had found many a mysterious things, some sparkling and some dark by nature. He like collecting them for the voices. out of all of them he cared least for this mask he found along with a dagger and a sack full of stones of different colours and flat round bright things.

Just so that you know, the boy was alone, he knows this old man who visits him once in a while , he was the one who taught him how to speak. He never really understood the concept of being alone he just knew that this is how it is going to be after all he had his voices and treasures . If he had more he wouldn't know what to do with it. But the old man always made him good food different food nothing you could pluck from the trees or snatch from the water.

He never enjoyed eating those really fidgety things that lived in the water. But he found them entertaining ad he watched the little ones jump out of the water time and again. And every time the glowing disc moved lower and disappeared the little ones glow , they give the cold dead water... life.

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

Only rocks I filled it with


The scene was so disturbing I moved my eyes away from it... everything began to fade away till everything  around me was a blur... The noises began to ebb away... till i managed to block them out completely ... At last it stopped ... the noise ... At that very moment I start dreaming, dreaming of the streets and feeling the air breathing in the freshness ... the cold filling into to my body ...Like you once said to me isn't it enough that it exists !

One for the family
One for the friends
Several for myself (according to the hearts whims and fancies )


like the crow who threw in pebbles so that the water could rise and he could drink from it ... and fly away... take on life with new found energy and a sense of fulfillment ... however there was no water at the bottom of my jar ... only rocks I filled it with !

One for knowledge
One for health
Several for my paychecks ( Money brings you close enough to true happiness)

Like the greedy farmer who killed his golden egg laying goose only to find it empty ... blood on his hands of an innocent and pure creature ... I have bludgeoned it several times more ... With only rocks I ever found and so only rocks I filled it with ...

Where was it all lost the beauty and charm? Why does everything I look at seem cheerless and dreary ... I would rather dream that come out and face reality.

One for hard work
One for ambition
One for the dreams
And another million and one for the dreams
For the dreams are all we have my love
In which we are true to ourselves and others !

Where there aren't only rocks but a road ...built with them ... A path however rough but one of our own making ... where the hurdles are only the ones we build ourselves and over come with great ease ... not only rocks because they come together as one to take you towards your dreams... The rocks , Only rocks I filled it with !

Monday, 29 August 2011

Rubbish

You know its going to happen
But you dont know what it is going to be
It is the most disturbing feeling for the little control freak in me

Some one who likes to live in her own world
I must not let anyone in
Time to double latch
What was a loose chain

Your words are ugly to me
I find no comfort in them anymore
Time to go underwater
Where no sound is made
Read my soul
Feel the blood pump
The creator sings within me
True happiness within myself

Success to me is not your approval
Only I judge my actions
I never gave you the rights
For me my path is what matters
Not what you think or feel

I have energy enough to live my life
I dont give a fuck about yours
I have darkness enough in me
Will live in the shadows if it will keep you out
To me it is more dazzling than any ray of your light

So dont turn up your nose at me
So "dont give me evils dont give me them nasties"
HAHAHAHAHA
Because in my head there is a finger pointing at you
And insane laughter












Saturday, 27 August 2011

 Brilliant mind 
Oblivious heart
Words that mock and poke fun
He who knows he is right
He who knows
You think he is right
His crude nature
Addiction to depression
Aversion to human affection
All cast away
In the light of his determination
He will right what is wrong
Only in his own way
His path is second to none
Never seeking for approval
Turns away from acceptance
Never the one to seek solace
In the commonplace (of somebody's heart)
Yet,
Never will he let the ticking stop
Or even be flawed !
He knows he wins
Because he defines his own victory

The eyes are not cold
Ears are not flooded
He is looking to fix it
Always looking for the flawed beat
Preying
And laughing
At our petty concerns
Because we think he is damaged
Because he cares not for smiles
Cares not about tears
Laughing, because we are
Falling behind 
The science of deduction is the game of the terrain
Terrain called life
Where we have given up
He reigns !











Wednesday, 3 August 2011

... a vivid dream

Every morning you open your eyes, the night has long past but the dreams linger on. The record is on a loop, im running, being chased.

I'm being slowed down, now immobilized by its cold embrace. It wraps around my neck ,tightens around my feet. Its got unimaginable strength but I break free. Free from the shackles in a frenzy, loosen the noose swiftly, sitting up right at last... the air smells sweeter. My fists tighten to stop me from shaking. I float around, no surface seems to stop me and I drown... deep slumber where a new story begins  

When you wake up, you have a choice between the fantasy worlds you want to be a part of or reality. If it is in my subconscious its very much real but when I'm conscious there is a different reality that exists, governed by law and placed in between a system. Is it a foolish thought that I can make my dreams come true, make it one the conscious and the sub conscious, create the reality I want to?

Having said that and written about a night mare just at the beginning of the blog I do not want my my reality to be a night mare, as if reality isn't much of a nightmare already, but Im not going to moan about it just now, i Iwant to speak about something lighter, but I  will moan about the fact that my bed is situated in the most horrible corner in the room its boiling hot here! And just as you walk a couple of steps away from here you feel the temperature drop. Its not going to help me at all being so hot headed all the time. We need rearrangement !(of the room and the things in my head)